Diabetic Sweetness

Weee I made dessert! =D
It taste better than ice cream ^^
But M&M still wins
Cooking fruits seems stupid...
BUT TASTE DAMN GOOD HOT!

Don't try this at home!

I have been reading list of magazines for fun these days.
And I saw one particular article on Detoxifying from cleo...
The article is pretty interesting in a sense that it doesn't seems like a proper life to eat and live that way =P
BUT BUT BUT..
it is the result and healthier life we hope for kan?
So I thought of trying one of their recipes for detoxification.

AND LOOK ABOVE! THAT IS MY HASIL KERJA...
I'm still having doubts on drinking it....
You know why?
Ingredients: CELERY, apple, lemon, carrot, GINGER, and BEETROOT (which explains the color).

Smells like crap...
=(
Who wanna share it with me?

Scamper!

I just love Carol Lee Siew Wei =D
Hahaha this girl is superbly adorable.
I'm a messy and an unorganized person.
So if you were to give me something, don't expect it back in a perfect form if you don't warm me before hand.
This girl noticed I left her blue elephant in my cupboard unattended for few weeks and probably told me about it for weeks, but she never stopped giving me souvenirs!
HAHA I remember she warned me, I just couldn't remember how to deal with it. XD
So this time, when she returned from Penang and got me this cute little souvenir, she sarcastically said "I wonder if I will still see it next time..."
LOLZ
I quickly replied, "You see, I was thinking the exact same thing. So no worries, I told myself I'm going to bring it home, so it will definitely be at home =D"

See! Isn't the pen cute!
Look at what is written on it!
SCAMPER!
"At first I saw a monkey shaped pen and it suited u well, that was before I saw 'scamper' on this one with rabbit on it and I immediately made up my mind!" she said before falling into a hysterical fit of laughter.
HAHA I couldn't help but laugh as well!
Thankfully I see "lovely" written on the pen as well.

I'm sure "lovely" was the main objective right, Carol!
=D
You fool!
Thank you for the lovely pen ^^

ps: I attached the blue elephant to my wallet. So now its at 50/50 risk of being missing with my wallet but at the very least, you will see it more often =D

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On a completely unrelated chapter,
I fell in love with this scene in the 8.30pm hong kong drama, No regrets!
I felt there is something deep about friendship and trust to be learnt from such drama.

Cast: Kau Ku Liong ( Main lady) and Lau Sing (Main guy)

In an empty street, Kau Ku Liong ran into a phone booth and pushed a few buttons before leaning towards the cold walls, sniffing constantly. She was addicted to the marijuana. The symptoms were showing clearly.
The phone in the police station rang and Lau sing answered the phone but there was no one speaking.
Kau Ku Liong recognized the husky voice of the receiver but made no attempt to reply. This was the voice that told her a week ago he couldn't afford being her friend anymore. He isn't a superman, just an average Joe. Who is he to mess with big guns like her? To support and help her. The voice that once gave her all the confidence and power has now turned into the voice that could only say no. Ironically, in her moments of dismay and lost of hopes, this is the only voice she wished to hear.

"Is this Kau ku liong?" Lau Sing said.

In fear of being found out, she quickly hung up the phone and ran as fast as she could as she find shelter in her car. She cried. She sobbed heavily. Sadness creep into her soul reminding her the fact that she is now officially all alone in this cruel world without a single soul who would listen to her. As if matter couldn't be worse, she is forced to take marijuana just to hide her true intention.
Marijuana is her family business. She hated it. She burnt them all up despite the disapproval of her dad. She would do anything just to have that moment again. Taking marijuana to create the false imagery of her own may be tough today, but this girl live a big dream. A true heroin indeed.

But could she pull through when she is already half dying in addiction?

She soon found the energy to drive back to her office where she satisfy her disgusting addiction.
Lau Sing was hiding near her office as he watched this noble friends of his doing things she swore she will never do. Her entire image and her actions were so unfamiliar to him, he couldn't tell who was she anymore.

Another night for two sorrowful souls.

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Lau Sing finds it harder and harder to run away from Kau Ku Liong. He ended up pulling her out from all the marijuana craps and brought her into a church.
He wanted to help her get over the addiction.
Telling her, "it takes only 2 hours to go through the terrible pain and you will be better soon."
She screamed, shouted and cried in pain and agony. She needed the marijuana badly.
Lau Sing kept reminding her that he is her friend and he is here to help her.

Her voice of hope finally came back to help her.
This man is probably the only man who understood her intention and plans is finally back.
She looked into his eyes which are filled with sincerity and care.
She knew she doesn't deserve this. She couldn't drag another person to hell with her.

Concealing the last evidence of desperation, she pushed him aside and demanded him to go away.
She reminded him that she isn't someone he could afford to mess with. Spitting out every words he said to her that broke her heart, to push this friend further away. After much said, she closed the door that separates the both of them, hoping that he could never find her.


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Lau Sing found out that Kau Ku Liong is in trouble. She lost something very precious.
And the next day, Lau Sing showed up with the things she need.


A friend in need needs a friend indeed.
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Keng Sein...
There is many things I want to say about this drama, this particular episode.
It doesn't end here...
But I have like 1k worth of assignment due soon.. LOLZ....
So I better stop now....
In summary...

When Kau Ku Liong said I don't friend you. It means I don't want to get you into trouble anymore.
Friends today say I don't friend you. It means they really have no interest of being your friend anymore.
See the difference?
When a friend is in trouble, she looks for a pair of genuine arms of a friend who would hold her tight and tell her everything is ok.
When Kau Ku Liong is in trouble, she shut herself up to avoid causing shits for her friends.

I don't just admire the attitude, I love the author of this script!
How such deep emotion is drawn out from just two characters.. The kinda process I felt worth acknowledging. The kinda complexity and sacrifices that marks the level of a relationship. The building blocks of a true relationships are understanding, sacrifices, understanding and more sacrifices.

Its astonishing to find people getting into relationship these days for fickle reasons. Part of the reason I guess why I'm alone myself.
Cause there isn't a point.
We are all mistaking stupidity for simplicity.
Argh, my lack of vocabulary is killing my self expression.
I'm gonna stop now.

I love this drama
I love the dialogue
I love the girl
I love it all

Every great dream begins with a dreamer

I just love how innovative my dreams could be these days....

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I was on my bed since 11pm, kicking and turning, trying to get some sleep without the help of panadols.
But sleeping was a little more difficult last night with endless chirping of crickets.
Guess where those little love dolls were hiding........ in my roof.
I figured that out after knocking every possible hollow space in my room.
This is the kinda thing nature gives you when you are struck with fever.

The time seemed like it could go on forever when my heartbeat started to paced up and the temperature of my body increased to an unimaginable degree.

And before I know it, I fell into a deep yet not so peaceful slumber.

I was awaken in a room filled with flying A4 papers in a run down factory.
There were faces in everyone of those A4 paper, faces that were unfamiliar to me.
The floor was flooded with papers and I naturally picked one by one up and filed them up in a folder before sitting in front of a fire place.
I was rather emotionless, just wanted to sit there and watch the fire burning.

I caught myself whispering, "the incubator is beautiful."
Honestly, I have no idea what the hell is an incubator but the word just appeared and I didn't question it.
Out of the blue, my phone rang.
I ignored it once and it turned out to be a mistake.
Cause the room suddenly filled with lots of different phone ring tones jamming in my brain, challenging me not to answer it.
Given up to pressure, I hesitatingly took out my phone and found only one miss call, from a guy I would rather not speak to.
The phone and the surrounding suddenly fell into silence and I heard the crack of an opening door from the back of my head.
I turned around and to my disgust, it was the guy on the phone that I have been avoiding.
I backed up nearer to the incubator, just trying to keep my distance away from him.

Well, avoiding leads to no avail as he pace nearer, decreasing the gap between us.
I was definitely in fear as I started to feel pain in my stomach and headache all over.
He smirked at my misery, spitting out disgusting words to my face "You know I will find you.."

Somehow, that exact phrase stabbed me at the right spot, giving me all the confidence to challenge him.
Instead of backing up, I pushed my body nearer to his, catching him off guard before giving him a flying kick that sent him straight to the incubator. (Walao, gym is helping!)
His body was covered with flames and I laughed hysterically at his pain and burning hair.
He cried and screamed in pain like a bitch. What a joyful sight.
I think I'm a little bipolar because in between the endless laughter, I started crying.

"What have i done, I killed someone!"

Suddenly it became my turn to turn hysterically as the fire licked every part of his body, silencing that noisy bastard.
I wanted to run away as fast as I could but my legs gave up and I sat there for hours as I watch him disappear.
Then two papers were released from the chimney of the incubator.
And I saw my friend's face on it. Both of them don't look like his face at all. Both of them are a lot older, filled with wrinkles and uglier. One older than the other.
One of them says 30 and another says 60...
At the top of the paper, it says receipt.
Well it is a pretty portrait even for the ugliest face but I just couldn't figure out what it meant by receipt and the whole faces.
Then the third paper came a long and I thought it probably says 90.
I turned it around and found my face on it, it is still young......

Before I could figure out anything, I was forced to wake up, wanting to go toilet badly. Bloody hell. I went to the toilet quickly and came back to my room, writing down the few words I remember from the dream "Incubator, midlife horror, when we are old and three different faces"

Few hours later when I was clearly awake, I looked up the dictionary, trying to find out what is an incubator.

Turns out it is a machine that just born babies sleeps in if they are weak or the place where they heat eggs up. LOLZ Dreams...

HAHAHHAHAHHAHHHAHHAHHAHAHHAH
THERE IS NO FIRE IN AN INCUBATOR YOU FOOL!
GG



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I'm done with the post.
Just wanna say sorry for those who couldn't understand what I wrote...
It happens all the time... =D

Back to Basics!

I just love learning things from basics!

So why basics?
It happened like this....

I had this chat with Carol Lee the other morning over coffee regarding world peace and national economy health; debating endlessly on our own point of view... Educational conversation no?

Haha

Nah, we had our usual girly chat on the Monday morning.
Start with the usual agenda; how's ur relationship life coming along, any highlights and whatever that comes along with it.

And one particular topic made to the highlight of the day.

Topic: Valedictorian.

How many of you are still inspired to be the valedictorian of the year?
Be featured on tv, newspaper and magazine.
Recognize by people beyond your social network.
But most of all, challenging the one and only worthy competitor, yourself.

Valedictorian was a goal in life that I've completely ignored ever since I entered college.

Valedictorian, perfection in scores and grades.
It is too much of a task for Lim Keng Sein.
My grades or life have never been consistent.
It can be good today, terrible tomorrow.
At times I will beat myself up wondering how come my best is always the second best!

Talking to Carol made me realized a few things about myself.

• I procrastinate (this is too obvious)
• I got the self esteem of a turtle. Hide for nothing.
  
• I never practice any basics or follow the step by step instructions in everything I do. (Look at my math) =P
• Most of my creation are free styled (whether they are good or bad, you can tell the work of lim keng sein just by looking at it. it can be my art, math, writing, inspiration, assignments and life).
• I take up many things, but never a master of any. Don't expect me to teach you things I get recognized for cause not I kedekut ilmu, I really don't know how to teach or how I get into that position. I just do them for a short period of time, and forget them the next. Memory power of a full cup.
• I don't work well with procedure or time table.
• My attention span is short. Imagine, micro mini short. Yes...

Trust me, all these flaws, one way or another, I'm aware of their existence.
But because my life still goes on well and I still make short successes, I guess I kinda belittle their influence in my life.

These things have in fact made me the jack in "Jack of all trades, Masters of none."
I'm tired of living like a half bucket of water.
Multi tasking is no longer fun.
For once I want to take up all the basics, practice them well, remember them and then enhance their capability.

• I want to finally lose those weight with proper training.
• I want to finally finish my assignment without googling for the basic again and again.
• I want to finally paint a picture that looks good, and know I have no problem drawing the same thing again.
• I want to finally look at an empty sheet of paper without thinking oh crap when will I be done, I want to look at it and think, this paper is going to be filled with a HD worthy essay.
• I want to finally be able to give a proper explanation for the things I do, instead of saying, "I just do la... It's random" NO ITS NEVER RANDOM!
  

Damn that feels good!
Those Wants will have to wait for now!
I don't want to rush things like I used to.
I'm going to master all the basics, keep a consistency in my training and see the changes!

This will be the first, for the past 19 years of my life, for me to finally take up the challenge to do things in a slower but proper pace.

LETS HOPE ALL THE BEST FOR ME! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE


This is what me and Siew Wei thought of.
Guess this is the basic for what?
Mona lisa face!?
This is the basic for my future portrait drawing.
I shall draw Siew Wei's face one day when I have enough practices!
For now its back to cubes and squares for me!

Bloody hell, it looks like egg! LOLZ
BACK TO TRAINING!

I just love Proton Wira!

I just love Proton Wira!

Last Monday, my car overheated early in the morning when I was on the way to college!
I seriously don't want to blame my gender for my lack of knowledge on these issues, but honestly, I'M SUCH A GIRL!
I didn't know what to do T.T

My car overheated when I was stuck in the jam on the way to college.
Normal people would stop to let it cool down right,
but nooooooooooooooooo.
I think my inner self thinks I'm too cool for it.
Cause when I see all the car jamming right at my back, I panicked and forced my car to move all the way to college from Midvalley!

THAT WAS A LONG RIDE MIND YOU!
I saw my exhaust giving out soot like nothing else and I knew I was in deep shit but everyone was using emergency lane to skip the jam... so yah..

Like I said, deep shit.

But I'm thankful my car made it near to college when it finally gave away its last breath.
It was stuck in the middle of a junction but thankfully a nice indian man stopped by to push my car aside so I could walk to my college and call for help.

Oh btw, I didn't bring my phone of all day to college. HAHAHAHAHA
The whole process of "cleaning up" my car troubled many people...

My college buddies, Jinny, Lenny, Aidy, and Kai Lee were there early and they offered to help!
but being girls, all of just just stood in front of my car wondering what to do.
Ah Yang (Eequin's Bf) on the other hand helped me to wake my brother up =D

Eventually the people from the neighborhood helped me to get the mechanics and I had super savers, Darren and Kenji there to console this poor soul from killing myself from the inside =D

Darren even bought me baskin robbins ice cream!
HAHA life indeed lighten up..
In moments of darkness I'm glad I have good friends I could depend on despite being a complete jackass =D

I had to trouble my brother to bring me home from college after everything =(

When I got my car back from the mechanic, I started pampering my car with all the love in the world to express my apology as an insensitive owner.

• I drove my car at the speed of 80 only.
• I made sure I'm on the right lane as much as possible.
  
• I took my car out for a car wash and vacuum...
• I cleaned all the trash from the car.
• I fixed the cable that I broke few months ago by purchasing new screws for it! So from now on anyone who needs some cable, KENG SEIN IS ALWAYS AVAILABLE...
• I cleaned my but and filled it with proper carpet, water, umbrellas, and some food supplies incase I get stuck in the middle of the road again =P
  

SEE! All ready to be used!
I have seriously never seen it clean before =D
Even the tire is polished after being coated with few layers of dust!
See ^^ Shiny shiny

I'm glad I have my car back.
The whole experience made me a lil more sensitive towards people.
A lil more appreciative towards people and especially motorcyclists =D
and a little more careful with my car =D

On the random side of the world,
This is my little drawing after not drawing for more than half a year...
=D
I started with the eye balls but I couldn't remember how to draw a lion's nose so I drew a dragon nose instead... But I didn't know how to draw a dragon head so I drew a lion head in the end...

Yah... Thank goodness I'm not in the design line..
Who knows, a milk bottle might turn out to be a car ^^