Expressing what is real

At one point....
I blog only for profits...
Then I lost interest and that was that...

Recently I have been reading up on blogs...
Noticing how much a person is willing to spill in their blog, becoming so bloody honest and comfortable with telling everything, they literally used blog as another diary....

Well, a diary we wish to be read by the others....
It seems boring... But it helps the others to understand them better....
So I tot of giving that kinda of writing a go....
To see if it would help me or the others at all...

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5 November 2009

"I have been ***************************** for 18 years already! weeee"
I caught myself subconsciously saying it out loud, with the sigh of relief...
Shocking... I don't want to admit it but it might actually bothers me to acknowledge that...

We are all talking about a heated topic...
At first I tot of all the ways I need to approach a relationship issues
Trying to reason out why its ok not to cry for a guy....
But when my advice becomes useless, I feel so annoyed and irritated...
I don't know how to face relationship issues...
How to advice a person to calm them down
Or to know what is right or what is wrong to everything...
All this while I might have thought I missed out in getting a boyfriend at younger age...
But after seeing one problem after another in relationship...
I need to look at god and say thank you for all the fateful avoidance in relationship...
Its not that I expect relationship to be awfully smooth and harmless..
It's just that if one day I look at the mirror and caught myself crying helpless day after day...
my already small eyes will get uglier than ever!

can I really risk that for a guy??
Hmmmmmm

I'm still selfish arent I?

Gapz Garden Review!

Do you know..
There are three types of manga??
They have similarities in the drawing...
Yet contrasted differences...

Manga- Japanese comic
Manhwa- Korean comic
Manhua- Chinese comic

I recently only noticed the last category ^^

You will notice that Manga got simple and less detailed drawing while Manhwa got the overly dramatic details on the drawing...
Manhua on the other hand, like the one you can see in the example picture, is harder to tell the differences.

The only thing I noticed is that the mangaka for manhua actually bothers to switch the character's hair over so frequently you may at times mistaken them for someone else...
Maybe it's only for this manhua but the other manga I read so far will not emphasize on the changes in hairstyle or even dressing to emphasize on a certain characteristic based on their style...

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Gapz Garden

http://www.mangafox.com/manga/gapz_garden/

I love the story becoz of these few lines..

"How come I can't even be honest when I'm writing my own diary?"
-happens the moment when the hero read the heroin's diary about her love interest for another one... When she skipped his name in her diary...

"I will force myself to dance with everyone tonight... Just to get my chance to have you dance with me.."
-When the heroin still doesn't know the guy likes her because he bullies her all the time.

"Could I open up myself to you now? Could you understand the hug I gave you before and now?"
-When the hero thought the one he loves likes the heroin..

"Even if the one who wrote to me used the name Lily, I know the one who had written it is you, Julie"
-When the hero's brother found out that the step mother forced the adopted sister to be the penpal of the brother.


The story is damn good I ensure you...
A manga that made me laugh, depressed, confused and enlighten...
It is really impressive..
Using mental illness in between the story line..
And the ending.... eventhough there are unwritten outcome of the relationship, the mangaka left the story with a perfect ending ^^

Out of the blue

Human Communication.....
Would determine the end of civilization
Which would leads to dooms day
Go figure...

I see similarities in my daily communication
First talk
Get into a topic I wish to talk about
If the person agrees with me.. I would probably emphasize on it
If the person don't... I would 'attempt' to relate to their theories and try to use metaphor to help them understand why I would hold my theories this way...
In a way...I would say I listen to get points to argue back...

It made it very difficult for me to talk to a certain people these days when my overly logical metaphor and ideas are not accepted because they would prefer no argument..
They would see argument as a sort of hindrance to human communication..
And would look for toleration and silence instead...
For me.. I see them as negligence. Another sort of ignorance...

Do I follow the theories "the less you say the more you learn" and "ignorance is a bliss"
or would stand strong to your believe be more righteous?

I don't want to appear ignorant..
Nor do I wish to be stubborn..

Human communication..
Is indeed harder than I once thought...

The Undecided

A few more pimples are popping on the surface of my face..
Tensed tensed!
As I face yet another drama in life....
XD ( I wanted to write trauma at first but then ppl might say I don't know how to weight problems at all.... teehee)

Anyway...
When I was little....
My vacations, education, decisions and probably everything I see and do were all decided by adults....
So now I'm finally 18 years old...
Where all the you are still young excuses will never stop me from doing what I love...
Thus, I'm granted freedom on everything I do...
Freedom.. is a like power to me because every steps I take are all on me from now on....
Well, power always comes with great responsibility....
The responsibility to be rational...

You see.. I will be having my mid holidays soon this coming december....
And I have been anticipating for this trip to Singapore like no one else...
Because this might be the first holiday I ever had so far from home without and supervision..
Aside from that, my initial plan was to get some clothes for Chinese New Year and accessories because satya said things there are a lot cheaper with more variety....

CHEAP? VARIETY?
Those are like words from god for me..
I have been trying to change my closet for ages and now I finally got my chance to do it with my friends, could god be this generous with me??
I was so excited till the extend where I have been walking around from malls after malls looking at clothes I love but hesitated to buy because of this trip...
"Oh boy.. what a rip off... I'm sure Singapore has better offer.."
I even went up to most of my cousins and close friends and asked them a long ^^

I knew such wonderful trip wouldn't come without a price....
I have an expired passport that needs to be renewed..

That would cost me around Rm 300-500... I'm not sure about the price yet but to keep my hopes up.. lets say it's RM300....
Fine...
Add with travel tickets... It would total up to RM500 before even calculating the price for my food, shelter, and most of all my shopping....

Minimum expenses would be at least around RM1000.....
And since I'm a girl with her freedom and responsibility..
Most likely I would have to bear the whole thing on my own....
Lets put RM1000 with my main purpose together to see if it makes sense...

RM1000= Cheaper chinese new year baju....
doesn't right?
I know...
I wouldn't even spend RM500 on my CNY baju.. apatah lagi RM1000...

But I can't be stuck keeping the money forever right without any vacation?
One day... I will be using those money too....
My passport, eventually have to be renewed too..
My clothes... eventually also have to buy...
My excitement is in a mixture of disappointment and confusion now till I can't think rational...

Some asked me if this vacation is really worth it...
If a teenager at my age... Really needs a vacation when she couldn't even earn her own money to begin with...
To get the story my way.... I said if I don't take my holiday now, when my degree, internships and working life gets started, I might add another few more years before I even dream about holiday..
But don't I sound irrational and selfish already?
Maybe I should think about all the poor children in cambodia or myanmar who couldn't even get a proper home to begin with..
Why do I need to think so much?
I hope I'm more stubborn and reckless than to be on the border now...

To add to another stress, I was planning to join fitness first the moment my holiday begins... That will already cost me a lot but part of me really felt I need it...
I have been slumpy, unhealthy, lazy and tired recently...
I'm not even allow to go pa san alone because they think the whole world is too dangerous...
People I ajak to go swimming, gym, jogging and all...
are often only free on the weekends and at times would even reject the offer because of many reasons.... I understand that... that is why... I need to do this on my own right?
Which makes fitness first perfect... Anytime I want and alone if I must...
So I finally settle down with fitness first idea... Safe, a proper place, too many people to be dangerous....

But.. If I add singapore trip which will be RM 1000 and the whole fitness first thing annually would be RM1000.... That would be RM2000 dy! what about all my other plans???

Gah.... But I really want to go ><
Am I... Wanting too much??

I slept when I was in the car. And it banged.

**BANG**
My body launch forward waking me up from my terrible 5 second nap....

What have I done???
(please ignore all the dramatic way of explaining.. this is real!)

I smashed and hit on the car ahead when I was doozing off in my car...
Before I could register what happen and what to do...
The owner of the car ahead walked out of his car furiously..
Look at his car.. Look at me.. Look at his car.. and walk to me..

Crap... When I was about to open my door to get out.. He walked pass me and to my bumper.. Took down my car number and details, walk pass me again and said
"I will report this to the police."

I was still blur of what to do and how to react when he walked back into the car...My mind was preoccupied with the thought of...

• Damn why didn't I sleep for the pass 29 hours....
• Sob.. I shouldn't be sleeping.. but I was out of control..
• Police station? What will happen to my licence??
• Will this car burst into pieces...
• WHAT WOULD MY MOM SAY...
• great who should I call now
• Hmmm I wonder if satya could help...
• But my mom would know sooner of later... God..
• Can the man just take my bribe..
• Crap.. my wallet only have RM15 left...
• Great.. What about credit card??? WEEEEE
• Omg.. I didn't bring my credit car..
• Fuck... I hate driving...

My thoughts was interrupted when the man ahead suddenly came out of the car, telling me to follow him.

Back to my thoughts...

• Great now he want to bring me to police station straight...
• Now I got to call my dad.. No choice dy.. Screw it..
• Why am I in bangsar village??

Apparently, he didn't just not send me to the police station, he directed me to a mamak in bangsar village where we talk about how to settle the situation. We successfuly negotiated to settle this without the police knowing and as soon as possible. He suggested me to keep my car there in bangsar village while he brought me back to my dad to make sure we don't get lost. He was really nice in handling the situation. Trust me, I was about to burst into tears when I was there in the mamak when he did all the talking...

After accountering with him. I noticed he is a very nice uncle. Really really nice. How often you have your nice new car smashed by another person and you tell her it's alright because car are just another form of material, we don't have make a fight out of it. He even told me about the experience of being angry in this whole matter and stuff. He was so understanding and nice to me.... Making the overly stressed me to not cry at all... It was really uncomfortable in that situation because I depended on him to bring me to my dad's office using gprs and also bring me back to the place to get my car and direct me out of the place..

Hopefully next time when I drive and I got into this type of situation when I became the victim, I will keep a cool head and handle this professionally. In the weirdest way, I'm thankful I encountered him and no one else. Imagine if it was gangster? God, you are very nice to me. Thank you. I learnt my lesson well...

I can't be so stubborn

Before I go on killing myself with 4 books that I need to digest in the next 12 hours..


I need to apologies for my lack of consumerism attidude and for not giving Croc.Inc a benefit of a doubt...

Alright.. I'm referring to my previous post http://genuinegesture.blogspot.com/2009/08/so-what-is-crocs-today.html that I have written on Crocs genuine shoes's on the street...

The "apparent" truth is out...
http://thestar.com.my/lifestyle/story.asp?file=/2009/9/7/lifeliving/4640755&sec=lifeliving

The Star newspaper has already announced and clerified for Croc.inc that the crocs that has been selling like hot cakes in Pasar Malam are completely.

You can refer to http://thestar.com.my/lifestyle/story.asp?file=/2009/9/7/lifeliving/4603134&sec=lifeliving on how to tell a genuine crocs from a fake one...

I made a mistake on shopping..
Guess I lost in the bet I made agaisnt myself in interpreting news..
Why would I suddenly come up with this blog post?
I have been checking out of my nuffnang keyword tracker on how people reach my blog and it's apparently they key in "Crocs in pasar malam" on google to look for me.. weee

I planned not to post about this because I'm too stubborn to admit I'm wrong. This sucks. But I'm not all wrong.. =P that I'm sure.

But my previous blog post was mainly about Croc.inc financial difficulties and the information I provided there are still accurate.. So don't have to start thinking I'm picking up things from mid air to post it up in my blog.. =P

In my humble opinion.. If you have been wearing fake crocs for days and didn't notice it is fake for so long..... Just wear it.. It's still comfortable and affordable.. Just a lot cheaper =D no harm alright..

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Think about this:

The media can tell us just about anything. The accuracy are always doubtable cause after all, it's the journalist who wrote it. They are just people and they aren't god. We read and we think we know it all, psssh, we are being controlled by the media. So this latest news from crocs, are the real? Could the Star be right? You be the judge.

If you think rice facial wash is good, you never tried semen XD

"Gah my pimple are growing like weeds on my face! I need help!"

Hey if you have such thoughts or even close...

Don't worry you have SK-2!

"But SK-2 is expensive.. who doesn't know those Rice facial wash is good...."
Muahahhahah! Smart and good reply! I expected that from you! The true secret is semen!


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I'm not effing with your mind! I'm like super serious with you right now...
Semen do keep your face white and smooth!

"Healthy semen may in fact be not only safe to eat, but actually good for you. Seminal fluid is a veritable nutrient-rich soup. Semen is a source of highly concentrated, high-quality protein. In dietary terms, it's comparable to egg whites or gelatin. " quote from Daniel Slack.

"Semen is good for wrinkles. Semen contains protein which can have a tightening effect on the skin. As the water evaporates, the protein remains, temporarily stretching out fine wrinkles. But when rinsed all goes back to normal." quoted from TomiGion.com

Well at least now we know we can all keep man by ourside for more commercial reasons...
But wait...
If these info are so genuine...
How come there isn't any product which are using sperm as their main ingredient?

HAHA
that is where we are all wrong...
Sperm are indeed used for a certain beauty products!

• A sperm moisturizer product is famous and publically sold in Mexico! quoted from Ananova
• Bull semen Hair Conditioner. Click here for more info.
• "Do you want long, thick, model-like hair with lots of volume and shine without taking a trip to Great Britain? Check Out http://www.kevis.com/ " Quoted from here
• A Hari's Salon in London offers clients a 45 minute £55 bull semen conditioning treatment. Quoted from the same web above..

Hahaha.. the things you learn from internet.

Keep in mind that only healthy semen are good for your skins.. Technically.. I believe not many guys have it.. xD so don't make risky bets....

Anyway.. It's not like I'm suggesting everyone to go save their money on facial products and even hair conditioner by depending on their guys now... Personally, it's gross and disgusting to even have that thought in mind.. So just do whatever you think is right and don't miss use this informations.. Toodles...

ps: I'm addicted to gossip girls...

Excuse Me Mr Kanthaswamy

The man with the Chickentism?? XD

Chill

And don't you dare insult him!

He might just dress up as a woman to teach you a lesson or two~

He is a self made Super hero

Together with his other 10 friends joining up to help decrease poverty in India for the sake of the people....

A man with noble contribution towards his people

But then again...

Is his method right or wrong?

Stealing from the rich to help the poor...

Doesn't that remind you of the Fantasy Robin Hood we once look up to?

Even with similar idea...

I truly adore the movie..

Not only because there is a hunk for lead actor... (note: vikram is damn hawt__)

But because the plot, the casts of the movie and the sound effects...

The whole 3 hours just pass by me without noticing.. Have I mentioned...

This is a Tamil Movie??? HAHAHHAHAHA

It is!

And I watch it with my beloved Satya....
(Who's tamil is quite good.... ps: Indian version of banana_)
LOL
But the idea of watching Tamil movie with her is terrific!
We spent so much time laughing and going gaga over the cast....
Both of us at a few scenes without the subtitles were so lost and confused
But thankfully we were born with really good analytical skills
We eventually manage to understand the whole movie without much help from the subtitles..
TEEHEE!
HAHHAHHAHA I have never done such random things before...
We should do this more often.....
next time, with more people to share such fantastic experience together!


Have you noticed... We are very similar shirts! muahahhahaha
Sending messages without our clothing...
Can you guess what are we trying to say?
Let me give you a hint....
"I will die if Christine is my lesbo partner.. XD"
quoted from Satya in facebook...
HAHHAA so that is not your answer...

Then we spent time dining in Dome

Actually, we are really "calculative" and "moneyminded" at all time

Dining at such expensive places is completely outragous!

But one of my friend told me he saw my picture of Face magazine in the July copy...
So I went there in hope to see it but we couldn't find it

Oh well.. we enjoyed our trip there anyway...

Bonding time was awesome!

CHEERS!

Thanks babe for spending a whole day with me eventhoug you have plenty of graphs to complete..

I truly appreciated it and I felt we didn't waste any time no?

XD

Outing with you is never a disappointment!

Her pricy Spagetti...

She said the one in Singapore tasted a lot better

Again promising me that we will one day eat together in Singapore..

If I really drop down all the experince she planned to share with me in Singapore..
I swear we will be having one hell of a time there!

Couldn't wait to go Singapore trip with you!

Counting the days my friend!

Here we are...

Awwww.. Awesome picture right?

The most memorable picture we had the whole day....

We even went pasar malam together right after...

Too bad pohyee was sick and couldn't join us last minute..

Oh well babe! When u start your new life in UCSI, don't forget to hang out with us!

Friends...

The one you love

The one you hate

The one you will never forget

Till the day you are dead...

Love you....

^^

So What is Crocs Today?

Before I go on any further...
I would like to clarify the fact that I have nothing against Crocs Company...
Why am I writing a blog post regarding Crocs....

It all started with a pasar malam shopping spree
I have so much against pasar malam's product.. I literally don't shop there at all...(statement for clothing only)
But one very fine Friday night
My friend suddenly from a far end of the street in a pasar malam screamed...

"Hey! Crocs Shoe out for sale in a cheap price! The factory is suffering from recession!"

This kinda bullshits usually won't fool me
So in the end of the day
I bought a Crocs from pasar malam... XD

WHY! WHY DID I GO AGAINST MY PRINCIPLE!
This is because days before I heard of such bullshits..
I actually read on an article that Crocs is suffering from bankruptcy... So the point said in the night market could be taken seriously...

So I randomly paid RM35 for a pair of Crocs to test my own reliability on new's information..

But the problem is
When I told my friends they should so go get it as well when they found out I'm wearing crocs...
I was accused on being fooled by those pasar malam ppl...
Ok fine.. so the one I'm wearing might be fake..
But I insisted that Crocs IS suffering from bankruptcy...
I was literally ignored and accused for trying to twist the fact...

At the moment
My hand was suddenly filled with a pot
A pot filled with boiling frustration
It's either the news I read was unreliable and I was completely played by it
or it's the fact that the place where I got my shoe from has nothing real in it at all...
The pot of frustration just kept getting hotter
The only way to solve the heat?

Truth.. Only Truth could solve this mystery...

So here u go

• Los Angeles Times has stated Last year Crocs Inc. lost $185.1 million, slashed roughly 2,000 jobs and scrambled to pay down millions in debt.
• The Washington Post has stated Crocs shoe stumbled during recession.
• The Consumerist has stated 1 factory has been shut down under Crocs.
• CNN Money has stated its stock price plummet over the course of the last two years from more than $70 a share to about $3 a share.
• Daily Finance has stated A couple weeks later, investors sent the stock down 24 percent in a single day after the company announced quarterly results that fell short of analysts' estimates.

HAHA those are what I found out about Crocs "going to die" information...

But then again.. to be fair.. xD

the truth is... it's not dying

according to Yahoo Finance... There might be a hope to return.... MIGHT BE.. so stay tune ppl.. to get the best out of Crocs Inc

But again.. the main point of this article is to prove that Crocs is suffering from financial issues that might lead to bad sales and end up selling on the streets in Cheras area...

Who knows.. Close down maybe????

So how genuine is the Crocs in pasar malam...

Is it entirely fake?

Gosh.. someone answer these!

Dominating Damansara With Our Lil Feets.. xD

Camera Woman of The day... ^^

Cousins... And future cousin in law..
Satya is under family too ^^

Meatballs! You just can't get enough of it! It's like the BOOM!

The best I ever tasted and its only Rm1 for each! AWESOME

My red cousin Kenny..

My green pillow talk bestie.. Satya..

Aku cinta nya.. xD

All my beloved people

My cousin with Vanity issue..

Well One of them...

The rest are covered...=P

This is the cousin with shameless issue... xD

We are just a bunch of unique individuals... xD

Cousin rocks!

Bowling Camps! LOL...

(can't reveal the score here.. xD malu sian.. )

I had a great time with my cousins

Before we move on to the torturous place we call COLLEGE!

Will miss everybody.... sob